开始早睡，可是醒得也早。在起床12个小时后，终于，我耐不住倦意在下午睡下了。醒时已经入夜。看着比房间更乱的是我的电脑，突然兴起开始整理起来了。无数个文件夹，无数个文件，涉及了方方面面。当然，有些譬如说政治、经济、金融、体育便不是我涉猎的范围了。

很多东西明显的带着时间的标签。翻阅着，回味着。曾经的朋友有如熙熙攘攘的人流，现在不需要了；太心爱而没有一口气看完的小说仍静静地躺在那里，但理解又深了一层；过往的伤、痛、喜、忧诉说着那个过去的我……

不喜欢管闲事，也不喜欢别人管我的闲事。这，也是工作环境的作风。长辈的教育或许是经验之谈，但是否与时俱进、就事论事呢？并不是所有人、所有事都需要八面玲珑，身陷于泥潭的。生于上海，长于上海，自然也如上海一般饱览了世界的文化思想。取我所爱，为我所用。

浮生偷欢，醉里寻梦。

我喜欢这句。

When it comes to makeup, it seems that every girl should wear it.  Actually, it is not true.  Maybe some think nature beauty is the best, while I am too lazy to make up.  I have several boxes of colorful eye shadow, some lipsticks and the like, but I am not good at making up and at a time an idea that I can have a try before bath occurs to me. 

Tonight I tried.  It was the second time, but I do it much more skillfully and faster.  Perhaps a girl is born for it.  I just want to share my feelings with someone, but there are nearly no person on line at that time.  I began the session with Sharon.  When she heard I wore makeup, she was startled.  I am old-fashioned?  Maybe I am.  After a brief talk, she was off line and I told her nothing.  What I want to say is I find myself like a Korean.  Oh, no!  Though it is novel to me, I still don' want to be like this.  An idea pops out of my mind.  What will my roommates say when I appear?  That sounds not bad. 

讨到了歌，但和印象中的不太一样了。 是时间太久了，把原来留在记忆中的印象给淡化了、抹去了， 还是我不再喜欢了……？ 不管是修罗还是樱吹雪， 或许再见到阿克拉姆的时候， 过去的点滴会再次忆上心头吧！

这次放送的是收自LaLa創刊29周年記念 LaLaキラメキ ドラマCD中的《桜蘭ホスト部》的一段。这段我有一阵子听了很多遍，当然开头几遍会笑疯掉的，后来么，就漠然了。希望听的人，能喜欢。啊~~~~~~~~~~~~我犯了一个错误！！！那个，那个居然是绿川，怎么，怎么会……我的心凉透了……

私以为，较之他人，五感还算敏锐。虽说，远物不清，畏冷失觉，耳鸣混听，却也不影响。五感之中，以视、触觉最易生幻觉。

尝求学于奉贤。一日，小径回舍，途经他人屋舍。一层悬一物于顶，颇似人形。余虽诧异不已，却也若无其事继续行路。等相近而望，乃一衣物而挂。释然。此谓之幻视。

远行需以车代步。车上常觉有人碰触，转身，无人近身。久之，也不为意。然，次数渐多。初次、二次谓之幻，不予理睬；后仍触身，回头，仍无一人。查阅书籍，行于路途，亦常有此感。此谓之幻触。

异物上身？兴许。诚然万物变幻多端，世人不可捉摸，谓之鬼神也未尝不可。是与否则由人所定。信则是。纵然如此，莫多事理睬，自然保其身。此乃高招也。

得感觉于某人所提“压身”之事，故小议一番。

写了两篇作文，感觉和特训一样，把喜欢慢工出细活的我累得慌。真是丢人！看来我的水平还是很烂。不过那个框架让我想起了某个人，和那首儿歌，还是打油诗呢？

今天那个也没有联系上，下周再说吧！

还有，不就是个破循环嘛，成为了瓶颈，弄得我头大。Access也不会，更是丢脸。分好工，要开工了。

跑了三天，今天在家，感觉还是好累。左手的淤青还没有退掉，真是庸医，还不如让我自己来扎呢。

高兴的事是，周围的空气都是暖融融的，也就是说，春天真的要来啦！唉，什么时候开始变得这么怕冷。三天两头地盼春天……

Star light, star bright                                              ,

The first star I see tonight,

I wish I may, I wish I might,

With this wish, I wish tonight.

Today is a vital day to me.  I made it.  That's perfect!  After this, I went to the Luka's town, but finally I went home with nothing. 

Yesterday was also important.  At first, we had a physical examination.  I just spent thirty minutes finishing it because I cut in the long slow winding line.  Then we needed to fill in a form.  After lunch, all the students in our college were taken a photo on the man-made playground together.  The other colleges' students were waiting while we were under the way.  The camera was much more advanced than we had thought.  It looked like a floor fan which could shake its head.  Some volunteer helped us take a photo with all the teachers in our department, but the weather seemed to be cloudy.  By the way, I asked my teacher several questions on thesis.  He looked like a little older. 

Actually I was very delight, but today on my way home, what I felt was that I have completed a task at last.  Like the first time I got my wage, no happiness met with me.  That means the end is just an end.  It seems all are back to the world of emptiness.  Am I a weirdo?

My feet are aching because I do all these with a pair of Cuban heel.  Especially yesterday, I have stood for about half day.  In other words, it is equal to twelve hours or so.

When I was on campus, I have made some trades successfully.  Maybe I could be a gifted merchant for I have tasted blood.  I just don't know how to post a parcel by express, otherwise I will be a little online seller.

I saw the movie Haruka Maihitoyo several weeks ago and I have listened its soundtrack over and over these days.

The dancer 多季史(おおの すえふみ) himself is a tragedy.  His family was cursed and he died when he was dancing the most difficult and charming dance (斉稜王).  He did not want to leave and his soul lost all his memory.  He could do nothing but to wander and wait for the time he would be on the stage again.  Meeting with the Miko Agane, he seemed to fall in love while he still had the ambition.  But the curse let the stage fire when he was on with the mask.  Only Miko could provide the chance, couldn't she?  The answer was no.  One of what he needed was to finish the dance, and the other was love.  When he got Miko's love, he the soul left without regrets.

The song has plaintive melody.  It is likely to tell someone Oono's agony.  He was not accepted by anyone, Mother, other dancers, even the stage.  I just wanna catch the feeling. 

    斉稜王

最后一张专集了，在今天，我终于完成了我伟大的下歌事业。虽然这个举动还是有点猥琐的说，不过我能拥有她的全部的歌，也是人生一大快事。

来了些许兴致，听起了《白狐》。见词写得很有意境，把我有他所有的歌都听了一边。当然，也不时地看着歌词跟唱一段。倘若日日如此，也能耳濡目染不少吧！

下午的时候储机子造访。其实只是来拿些东西啦，不过来了么也就交流了一下。嘿嘿！一起看了一些恶搞的漫画。她不行啊，连“赞”也不会念。貌似很多简写都不明白。虽然我也不是很明白，不过比起她是要好很多。

晚上开始弄我的论文了。真是巨作啊！我的机器果然不行啊，IIS也没办法装。上次SQL就没跑起来……还是先做些力所能及的事。还是比较热衷于翻译啊。快点弄完就算了，不然看久的话，老毛病又会犯的。其实也就那么点水平，有什么好现的。

和BBS上的MM交换了照片。整天和女孩子在一起是不是很太那个点啦？哈哈。不过发觉她看上去真的好老，明明是学妹的说。还是说，我长得比较嫩啊？不过这几天通宵脸上可是从未有过的繁华呀！

Today is Papa's birthday and it is the International Consumers'Day as well.  My birthday is a festival, too.  When I got up, I had two pieces of cakes.  They were much more delicious and softer than yesterday's beef jerky which let my several teeth loose.  It seems my birthday, not Father's.  we'll have a hearty meal tonight.

Lian planed to visit me, but the heavy rain stopped her.  What a shame!  For I cleared up the room specially for her arrival, finally she just stayed at home.  She felt sorry to me and she would have a visit next time.

I still want to say something about Ali Project.  I don't look up one's information on purpose.  What I do is just to find something in my way.  I find her early collections.  It was published in 1992.  I don't know whether her songs were popular at that time, but this wins my respect.  She has kept her style for more than ten years, and it doesn't belong to main stream, but it catches my ears.

Girls like shopping and their money is flowing out easily.  I can't agree with the idea more.   Maybe this is the youth we call.

There was something wrong with my motherboard after Father welded capacitors.  That was the loudspeaker didn’t work, so we needed the sound card instead.  When it comes to the new sound card, it is an attractive one, I think.  It can offer me some important information on audio data.  Because of this, I find something interesting.  Actually, one kind of the styles of Ali Project is Gothic Lolita.  Is that true?  Maybe all of her songs or music belongs to this style and the CD covers are foppish as well.  It is a good choice.

Unexpectedly, someone doesn’t know what Lolita is.  I am too startled to say a word.  It was the memory when I was a pupil that a female character’s name in an anime is Lolita.  It sounds nice, I think.  I decided to let it be my English name but unfortunately I did not know how to spell the name.  I used Rita finally.  That’s not bad.  Rita is the short for Ritamargaret and it is mostly considered as a talented beauty with humor and extraversion, maybe a little untrue sense.  Some think Rita is a peace and holy place.  Really?  I am a Gemini with two faces.  When I show the extraversion, perhaps something untrue will reach me.  If I called myself Lolita, what would happen?  I cannot imagine the situation I should confront.

This night, I mean, from 0 to 2 a.m., I spent two hours browsing clothing for the coming spring.  Most of them don’t suit me.  Neither do this winter’s clothing.  However, this let me in a good condition.  I am having a plan to cheap road, just a plan because I have to deal with lots of old ones at first.  Meanwhile, I lost my part-time job and haven’t found a new one yet.  That means I am a poor woman now.  Ha-ha!

我们也有很久没有见了吧。真的细细算算，其实也没那么久，只是，给人的感觉却是许久许久了。

对你，我说不出是什么样的感觉，我也不想说什么。但是，你和我塑造出的那个角色不止几分相似，让我于心不忍因而无法舍弃的那种感觉。隐约地，总是带有罪恶感，毕竟曾经一起经历过很多事情。现在这样，感觉疏远得太多太多。

我变了么？确实，我也知道，现在的我和你印象中的应该是不一样很多了。不是你口中的那几句话，而是，而是纵然会放声大笑，也是表象。今天的我，也只是我扮演的一个角色。那也是没有办法的事，人也是需要改变的，为了适应环境。把罪恶的东西掩盖住，把善良的东西显露出。也许，这不是最好的办法，但是，谁都是由孩子起步长大的。因为放弃了很多，自然会变得静谧安心，但有时，这也是个缺点。

我的话貌似对你仍有影响。但我不一定是对的。所以想告诉你，只要你自己觉得好，就按你想的去做吧！毕竟路是你自己的，不要像我一样被束缚着，有形的，或是无形的。

和以前一样，到你家附近，我就会变得如做贼般地小心翼翼，生怕给你父母看到。当然，可能现在看到了，也许他们也认不出了吧！或许。

昔日的点滴自我脚下经过便浮现在了眼前，即使无情的岁月给那片土地留下的只有残缺的痕迹。学校北侧后满墙的红色的、白色的蔷薇花，还有校内初现让我惊讶不已的紫阳花，不记得了吗？其实我没有往下说，以前我们一同偷偷地当过采花贼……那个曾经让我觉得很大很留恋，野草丛生的乱地，在那里走很有感觉，艰难地好似在野外齐腰高的草地中寻觅着什么。

那些，即使是后来的记忆也无法覆盖掉的。只是现在，破小孩的破鞋变成了高跟鞋，双手也不再沾泥巴树叶。不要觉得自己以前是怎么样，所以以后一定要怎么样。和你一样的人有很多，我也是一个。如果有些话不说出来，别人会更舒适的话，那就留在你的心底。这，是我现在的做法。

不过，我看到你递给我的酸奶时，还是好高兴。有些东西是再如何也不会改变的，所以，我希望你能幸福。

There are a lot of things which can addict human on the earth such as drugs, alcohol, music, even books.  Every book has a story with love or hate, happiness and sadness and one reading them will welter in them.  Though I am always finding faults with their works, I am no exception in fact.  This is the reason why I do not have some reading so often.  If having a start, I will be absorbed when I know it and cannot stop myself.  Whatever the stories are on ancient legal medical expert or on witch, demon, apparition and monster, all of them give me a good appetite.  Now, I will go on my career tonight.

By the way, I hate the power is cut off when I am writing without saving. 

也不知源于何事，竟又开篇追文了。此大又是一学理的。果然还是这样的好。想来，文的再怎么样也可以闲暇培养，理的不懂也就真不懂了，废了。搞笑，至少窃以为是。只是，察觉一怪癖。但凡能对得上号的成语，都会一一转换。真是汗颜！想中邪至此，也非易事！确实，二言并进乃上策之举。

没来由的燥热，兴许是激动。严刑拷问下浮现依旧是汩汩血流、谜般家世。本以为流大乃强悍之第一人，不料更胜一筹之大有人在。不谈了，现在也来不及了。仵作那科果然有用至极……可将之列为穿之必备条件。